Review on 2010.

Posted by Fred | Posted in | Posted on 16:04

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It's has been a while I manage to be in a carefree mode. When is the last time I able to be so carefree? This recalled me about what happen last year. Year 2010, it is consider the turning point for my life...


After ended STPM on the year 2009, the early year of 2010 is one of the most carefree moment in my life but happiness can't last long as well. Enjoyed my job as a Merchandiser for F&N before Chinese New Year starts and my Chinese New Year celebration as well. 26/02/2010, the worst day ever happen in my life. Got my STPM results which is totally despair for me. It brings big changes to my social circle and despair started to devour me. For such a long time, I break into tears and I don't know what I can do about it.



During the toughest moment, it seems like no one able to bring me out from disappointment. There's still a slight hope light ray can be seen. That's get an offer from any local universities. Bear the shame, I try to get any info which able to help me for getting a seat in any local universities. Hoping that the ray of hope can shine me the path for success in my future. End of May the result can be known. Hero or zero?

Having a job as a tutor to gain my income since March and started to drunk myself in Runescape as a pain killer for my despair. Insane involving myself in gaming is totally not my style. Go out for gaming until dawn draws near, playing online game day and night, this is total madness and I can't believe I actually spent this kind of life. On my 20th Birthday, I remembered I go through it by playing Runescape for the whole freaking day. Birthday for a loser didn't remembered well by others so it doesn't a big matter whether it's being celebrated or not. At the end of May, the moment I had been waiting had arrived and yet it's not a good news anyway. None, no offer are being received. Seeing other people put a smile on their face and brag about their university offer. Me? Sit at the corner and wish them all the best with a forceful smile on my face.

Quited my tutor job due to preparation for entering university and who knows I got nothing. During month June till July, I drunk myself even deeper in Runescape and hang out gaming at cyber cafe if being invited. Appeal had been done for hoping able to join local university no matter how slight the chance would be. For the first time in my life, my hand phone was so silence because it seems like I had been forgotten by the world. A week before my appeal results came out, get a walk in a mall and got myself a job. That moment I tried to extend the interview date because the hope of appealing would be success still occurs. When the result of appeal came out, it is a bad news to me and I seriously gave up on continue my studies anymore. All hopes are gone and almost everything had ended Fine! I choose to work instead of going for further studies.


Luckily I was accepted by the company and on 1st of August. I start my life as a permanent worker. Although I'm also working as a permanent worker after SPM but things are different, because I lost the thought of wanted to continue my studies anymore. Joined Padini and work as an Operation Assistant and mostly my job aspect is cashiering. In the beginning, it's kinda hard because it's new for me. Thanks for my colleagues, I managed to  follow the tide of this job. Working is kind of lifeless but I had to do it for earning money. Money was being kept and not much usage. Life was 'constant' because it's like repeating the same thing everyday. 

One day my friend told me that UTAR's January Intake. I just don't bother about it until the moment I heard the news. I found out I'll never had the chance of being promoted because I didn't have a degree. That's the moment I plan to continue my path of studies. Time passes and I really enjoy working and hanging around with my colleagues. They drag me out from the black deep despair which I was been for the half year of 2010. As I mentioned earlier, happiness just can't stay long. I manage to get an offer to proceed my study from UTAR, but that's not a surprise because private university focus on payment. As long you had the cash then they will welcome you. I quited my job and prepare my new journey of my life. 

In year 2010, the only happiest moment is the moment I worked at Padini. Although everyone had different background but friendship still can be born, especially you. Failure to enter local university lead me to know them, kinda ironic isn't it? Year 2010, the toughest moment in my life, I'll take it as an experience and motivation to continue my life. I manage to seen through many things especially humans nature, behaviour, motives and many more...

Well it's time for me do continue my preparation for my next semester. Time pass fast, isn't it? Just a blink of eyesight, STPM had been history for me and founded that I changed. Good or bad? Who knows?

The End Draws Near

Posted by Fred | Posted in , | Posted on 22:28

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The whale had been in the deep sea region for quite some time. It's time for the whale to return and it means it's time for the whale to meet the jellyfish again. During the moment in the deep sea region, communication between the whale and the jellyfish is still available.

Lately, the old companion of the jellyfish appears again. Although it's not the first time he appears since the whale know him but this time he came back with preparation. He manage to drag the attention of the jellyfish until the jellyfish forgot the appearance of the whale. Since the whale is in the deep sea region, he can't come back in time due to personal reason. Now it seems like it's the end for the whale and the jellyfish being together.

Not being sad and down for the whale is a lie. The whale used to be good in hiding his emotion but this time he seriously fail to achieve until the nearby sea creatures also can sense it. The whale still believe there's still hope available. Is it the stubbornness or being optimistic? God knows....

The silly whale almost lost his interest to continue wandering around in the deep sea region and hope to be with the jellyfish to solve all the issues. The old companion of the jellyfish is truly annoying his mind but the whale can't do a thing. Now there's a important event happening in the deep sea region and the whale must do his best to get a nice score for the event. The motivations that he used to had, it seems like disappearing and fading.

There's a type of love named no fate and there's a type of abandon named fulfill.

Should the whale fulfill the desire of the old companion of the jellyfish and abandon his own demand by let them couple back together?

Actually what the whale want is a companion who really cares about him and prove to himself that he still had the passion to get himself a companion. It seems like there's a mountain blocking him to achieve this objectives all the time.

Choose among to love or being loved.

The whale will choose to love the one he like and try hard to change her opinion towards him. The whale tried his best for what he had done but there's no appreciation from his ex-companions as well. Maybe for the next time, the whale may choose to being loved by others. The whale is tired, exhausted and disappointed by it's past experience.

It's time for him to change his view of life....

A story I ripped from Facebook

Posted by Fred | Posted in | Posted on 22:02

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From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: ''How deep is your love for me?''

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: ''I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?''

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her ''I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

Tales of the wandering whale Pt.2

Posted by Fred | Posted in | Posted on 02:50

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When the whale continue swimming into the deeper region of the ocean, he realised that he's not alone. Inside the deeper ocean, he still manage to know more friends and having fun.

But the water pressure was too strong and damage will be done to the whale as well. The only thing which encourage him to continue swim in the deeper ocean is jellyfish. Thinking of jellyfish, this will provide him mental strength to overcome anything in the deep ocean.

Until one day, jellyfish's friend arrived and inform the whale that jellyfish's isn't available. Well long before the whale know jellyfish, jellyfish had a companion(who is way more better than whale). He arrived and share some of jellyfish's information. The whale felt like his relationship with jellyfish is being threaten. He felt like he knows not much about jellyfish and he can't able to take care of jellyfish with this distance. Although the companion of jellyfish is also far from jellyfish but it able to get to jellyfish anytime it wants, not like the whale. The whale is of course absolutely sad about this incident but the feeling towards jellyfish is a real deal.

Should he continue wait? Or give up?

Tales of a wandering whale...

Posted by Fred | Posted in , | Posted on 17:41

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Once upon a time, there's a young whale which always swimming in a pack with his kind.

One day this young whale get lost with it's group and separated from them.
This lonely whale keep swimming in the ocean hoping to trace it's way back to his group.

On his journey, this whale manage to make friends with other sea creatures.
They never fail to cheer the whale when it's moody and always provide it a hand.


The whale manage to regain it's confidence and never looks dull and worry like in the past.

Among this sea creatures, this whale had a crush with a jellyfish.
They always swim together and the whale want to know more about this jellyfish.


One day the whale must swim into the deep sea area which other sea creature's can't follow it due to high water pressure.
The whale felt freaking sad because he gonna left it's gang especially jellyfish.


Before it swim into the deeper zone in the ocean, the sea creatures threw a party for it and wish the whale good luck in it's future path.
At the same time, the whale brought it's guts and confess to the jellyfish but it turns up an epic fail.

Well this whale just won't give up so easily, it try to get near to the jellyfish and try to entertain it.
Both of them had a chance to swim in pairs.
During that time of period the whale took out it's courage and confess again but the result still being the same

Jellyfish told the whale: "you gonna left soon and you'll manage to get some better fish to accompany you in your journey. I can't endure the high water pressure like you had. this is what God gave you. The ability to explore the ocean more than other creatures but not me".

The whale, of course turning even sad and ask whether next time when he manage to find it's pack back which consume it some couple of years, will the jellyfish provide it a chance to being together?

The jellyfish just tell the whale to find someone better than itself. The whale is kinda confuse, is it because of having a different background with the jellyfish, so the offer being rejected.


Well the whale think that both of them should provide each other a chance to explore the ocean together to know whether they can be good partners.

Now, the whale put all of it's hope in the search of the deep ocean.
Other sea creatures continue their life as usual in the ocean.
The whale is alone again like during the past.
The only thing different is now it miss jellyfish so badly.

The whale is wandering:
1. whether jellyfish will change it's mind to partner together with it again in the future.
2. will the jellyfish really willing to wait the whale to return?


In your opinion, is it worth for the whale to miss the jellyfish?

Adios, amigos...

Posted by Fred | Posted in | Posted on 12:41

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Yesterday I just ended my job at Padini Concept Store at ECM.


Actually today will be my last day, but due to Malaysia's victory at AFF Suzuki Cup so I had been forced to end my job yesterday which is 1 day earlier than I expected. This is seriously a big surprise for me because my supervisor inform me about that at the very last minute before I end my shift on that day and I don't want it to end in a rush manner.


I lost the chance to make a farewell speech (Normally Operation Assistant will be given a chance to do it) and I just left the place like a normal Sales Assistant ends their job. Well I manage to reach some colleagues and just tell them a simple goodbye. To all Padinians at ECM, the feelings of missing you guys definitely will occurs. Man this feelings is even harder if compared with the moment when I'm leaving my both secondary schools. I wonder whether you guys will miss me, especially my teammates.

Knowing you guys, I believe it is a bless because you guys seriously made my year 2010 meaningful. At least my year 2010 is not a total lost. I seriously appreciate every moment that I being with you all, no matter in the mood of happy, busy, carefree, frustrated and etc. Fun and laughter, you guys manage to bring them back to me since I lost them in the first 6 months of 2010. Thank you, that's is from my bottom from my heart to you all for everything during this 5 months period.

Well life goes on... If you make struggle with your seriousness you will not feel an uneasiness.
Anything goes!!

Sayoonara, ore wa Padini tomu-tachi... (Goodbye, my Padini friends...)


What am I doing?!

Posted by Fred | Posted in | Posted on 12:47

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Lately I'm busy working and I'm too tired do blogging when I came home. Well since I ended my school life which turned into a failure, I'm working day and night to get myself some $. Working may turned into a boring life for me because I'm repeating almost the same words from my mouth everyday, example:

"Welcome sir/miss, this counter please."

"Your membership card already expired, so do you wanna renew it?"

"Here's your balance and receipt, thank you and have a nice day."

and Many MORE!

Well a new environment always brings me new friends. Hanging with them really brings me tonnes of fun. It has been a while since I can be such joyful after what happened to me in the beginning of the year. Working also enable me to know many nice girls but the sad thing is I'm forbidden to flirt with them because they may report to HQ and make me get FIRED! What I can do is just observe...


One more month to go and year 2010 will turned into history, I wonder when I'll have such free time to update my blog again.

Well I'll end this post with a movie clip:

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