Review on 2010.

Posted by Fred | Posted in | Posted on 16:04

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It's has been a while I manage to be in a carefree mode. When is the last time I able to be so carefree? This recalled me about what happen last year. Year 2010, it is consider the turning point for my life...


After ended STPM on the year 2009, the early year of 2010 is one of the most carefree moment in my life but happiness can't last long as well. Enjoyed my job as a Merchandiser for F&N before Chinese New Year starts and my Chinese New Year celebration as well. 26/02/2010, the worst day ever happen in my life. Got my STPM results which is totally despair for me. It brings big changes to my social circle and despair started to devour me. For such a long time, I break into tears and I don't know what I can do about it.



During the toughest moment, it seems like no one able to bring me out from disappointment. There's still a slight hope light ray can be seen. That's get an offer from any local universities. Bear the shame, I try to get any info which able to help me for getting a seat in any local universities. Hoping that the ray of hope can shine me the path for success in my future. End of May the result can be known. Hero or zero?

Having a job as a tutor to gain my income since March and started to drunk myself in Runescape as a pain killer for my despair. Insane involving myself in gaming is totally not my style. Go out for gaming until dawn draws near, playing online game day and night, this is total madness and I can't believe I actually spent this kind of life. On my 20th Birthday, I remembered I go through it by playing Runescape for the whole freaking day. Birthday for a loser didn't remembered well by others so it doesn't a big matter whether it's being celebrated or not. At the end of May, the moment I had been waiting had arrived and yet it's not a good news anyway. None, no offer are being received. Seeing other people put a smile on their face and brag about their university offer. Me? Sit at the corner and wish them all the best with a forceful smile on my face.

Quited my tutor job due to preparation for entering university and who knows I got nothing. During month June till July, I drunk myself even deeper in Runescape and hang out gaming at cyber cafe if being invited. Appeal had been done for hoping able to join local university no matter how slight the chance would be. For the first time in my life, my hand phone was so silence because it seems like I had been forgotten by the world. A week before my appeal results came out, get a walk in a mall and got myself a job. That moment I tried to extend the interview date because the hope of appealing would be success still occurs. When the result of appeal came out, it is a bad news to me and I seriously gave up on continue my studies anymore. All hopes are gone and almost everything had ended Fine! I choose to work instead of going for further studies.


Luckily I was accepted by the company and on 1st of August. I start my life as a permanent worker. Although I'm also working as a permanent worker after SPM but things are different, because I lost the thought of wanted to continue my studies anymore. Joined Padini and work as an Operation Assistant and mostly my job aspect is cashiering. In the beginning, it's kinda hard because it's new for me. Thanks for my colleagues, I managed to  follow the tide of this job. Working is kind of lifeless but I had to do it for earning money. Money was being kept and not much usage. Life was 'constant' because it's like repeating the same thing everyday. 

One day my friend told me that UTAR's January Intake. I just don't bother about it until the moment I heard the news. I found out I'll never had the chance of being promoted because I didn't have a degree. That's the moment I plan to continue my path of studies. Time passes and I really enjoy working and hanging around with my colleagues. They drag me out from the black deep despair which I was been for the half year of 2010. As I mentioned earlier, happiness just can't stay long. I manage to get an offer to proceed my study from UTAR, but that's not a surprise because private university focus on payment. As long you had the cash then they will welcome you. I quited my job and prepare my new journey of my life. 

In year 2010, the only happiest moment is the moment I worked at Padini. Although everyone had different background but friendship still can be born, especially you. Failure to enter local university lead me to know them, kinda ironic isn't it? Year 2010, the toughest moment in my life, I'll take it as an experience and motivation to continue my life. I manage to seen through many things especially humans nature, behaviour, motives and many more...

Well it's time for me do continue my preparation for my next semester. Time pass fast, isn't it? Just a blink of eyesight, STPM had been history for me and founded that I changed. Good or bad? Who knows?

The End Draws Near

Posted by Fred | Posted in , | Posted on 22:28

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The whale had been in the deep sea region for quite some time. It's time for the whale to return and it means it's time for the whale to meet the jellyfish again. During the moment in the deep sea region, communication between the whale and the jellyfish is still available.

Lately, the old companion of the jellyfish appears again. Although it's not the first time he appears since the whale know him but this time he came back with preparation. He manage to drag the attention of the jellyfish until the jellyfish forgot the appearance of the whale. Since the whale is in the deep sea region, he can't come back in time due to personal reason. Now it seems like it's the end for the whale and the jellyfish being together.

Not being sad and down for the whale is a lie. The whale used to be good in hiding his emotion but this time he seriously fail to achieve until the nearby sea creatures also can sense it. The whale still believe there's still hope available. Is it the stubbornness or being optimistic? God knows....

The silly whale almost lost his interest to continue wandering around in the deep sea region and hope to be with the jellyfish to solve all the issues. The old companion of the jellyfish is truly annoying his mind but the whale can't do a thing. Now there's a important event happening in the deep sea region and the whale must do his best to get a nice score for the event. The motivations that he used to had, it seems like disappearing and fading.

There's a type of love named no fate and there's a type of abandon named fulfill.

Should the whale fulfill the desire of the old companion of the jellyfish and abandon his own demand by let them couple back together?

Actually what the whale want is a companion who really cares about him and prove to himself that he still had the passion to get himself a companion. It seems like there's a mountain blocking him to achieve this objectives all the time.

Choose among to love or being loved.

The whale will choose to love the one he like and try hard to change her opinion towards him. The whale tried his best for what he had done but there's no appreciation from his ex-companions as well. Maybe for the next time, the whale may choose to being loved by others. The whale is tired, exhausted and disappointed by it's past experience.

It's time for him to change his view of life....

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