Illusive Smile Smile, even you're desperate..

2011, it's the total brand new beginning for the chapter in my life. Moving to a new environment and began a new life as a student again.

The beginning is a total awesome. Having yourself a strong team of alliance or partners, performing the best till everyone recognize your identity, and never being alone again. It's like based on your ability, you manage to gain what you actually can obtain. Everything goes fine until ladies pop in your life...

The first lady who being with me at year 2011 is a total mess. Emotionally, I was quite upset what happen and disappointed towards her response and immature manner. The second one is the one that really make my feeling goes down than ever. Bad temper, impatient, gloomy and unhappy. I just can't believe actually it is over and the reason is unacceptable for me. She really played an important role in my life and it's over.

So far life is just being normal. Attending class, revision and the route just repeating. I'm tired of being a backup for anyone. It makes people rely too much on me but everyone is enjoying the same credits. No one will remember your efforts and lack of appreciation had been shown. Where's everyone when I need them? Where's my backup? No one, no one at all. Then what's the point for me being a backup for them, is it a must? I had being a backup for them for almost 9 freaking months and I'm tired towards the ungrateful attitudes. It's like working like a slave and the master gain the glory.

2012.. So called the end of the World.. It doesn't matter it will end, but I'll prove myself again I'm still the main character. Forming another team of alliance and overcome anyone who runs in my path. Forge myself another winning team since the previous alliance can't work anymore. I wish the maiden who's supporting me far away from me, will seriously appreciate me like how she mentioned. I prefer the world ends, rather than suffer another heartache strikes by a lady..

Smile, even you're desperate..