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There's a teenager named Jericho. With an ordinary looks, nothing special, one word: ordinary, to describe him. As Jericho's daily routine, he just attend classes, hanging out with friends, surfing Internet and doing revision like other ordinary students. He always believe that he got nothing special beneath himself, perhaps being ordinary wasn't a bad thing.


As a net surfer, there's a girl named Jacqueline starts to appear in his life. Both Jericho and Jacqueline initially had a nice conversation through instant messaging in the Internet. Both of them frequently encourage each other to face problems in their real life. Communication continues for quite a period, both of them decided to meet each other. Through their second meeting, Jacqueline request to start a relationship with Jericho, the reason Jericho is a nice guy. Jericho know that Jacqueline is ambitious and bold. Her actions are impulsive and highly optimistic by nature. Due to her sincerity, Jericho decided to give each other a chance. Jericho demand a lady who know how to cook, cheer him up and able to share everything with her. For him, coupling also means 2 individuals grow together to face the world, encouragement from each other is very important. Although Jacqueline don't know how to cook and kind of bold, he also tolerate with her because nobody is perfect include himself. As simple like ABC, a pair of new couple starts to appear in the town.

Both Jericho and Jacqueline demand a low profile relationship, that's why not much people know about it. People who knows about it are close friends of them. Jericho always worried that Jacqueline being alone and don't have companions, he frequently visit her. She stays quite far from Jericho but Jericho insist to visit her because that's his responsibility. Both of them are having life which ordinary couples had. Nice scenes never maintain forever, after a month they couple up, storm cloud starts to appear between them.

One day, Jacqueline felt sick and of course Jericho is definitely worried about her condition. Jericho go to her place and take care of her. Well with all the worries on his heart, he barely can smile towards Jacqueline and thinking what else he can do to help her. The next day, Jacqueline appears to seem OK in the beginning but sickness starts to conquer her again. Jericho is extra ordinary worry about her and go to her place immediately. On the moment, Jacqueline keep denying that she's sick. Her sickness and her patient reached to limit, she start to get real mad on Jericho. Jericho used to ask her the reason when she smile randomly, and to Jacqueline his method shows irrespectively. As a man, Jericho put his pride away and admit the mistake but it seems like Jacqueline still mad about it. When coupling with Jacqueline, this is the first time Jericho felt sad because he felt like his efforts for all along are nothing for Jacqueline. It seems like Jacqueline never appreciate what he had done to her. His teasing towards Jacqueline, with the purpose to cheer up the situation seems like showing disrespect towards her. With a broken heart, Jericho went home with a tired body. At that moment, Jericho actually have tonnes of works waiting for him to solve. By putting Jacqueline as his priority, and this is what he obtain exhaust and the feeling of despair which he think he had abandon it a long time ago.

On the next day, Jericho really fail to hide his despair and sadness, decided to be share with Jacqueline. Jacqueline seems like mad towards Jericho. He tried to get comfort from her, but it ended up he is the one who try to cheer Jacqueline. It's OK for him because Jericho willing to tolerate and bring what's best to both of them. Jacqueline demand this and that characteristic from Jericho to have a change and Jericho agree without thinking twice. He just want her to cheer up but at the same time his despair in his heart is getting darker and deeper. When the moment Jericho asking whether Jacqueline willing to change for him like what he currently did to her now, it's like a taboo. This question starts to turn the table off. Jacqueline decided to break up with Jericho, but Jericho wanted to save the relationship. For him, every relationships is precious and he told her to take it as an experience in their relationship. With her attitude, she just won't give a damn anymore and decided to break up. With a broken heart, that night was a sleepless night for Jericho again. It's been 3 days Jericho being sleepless. 1st day was worried about Jacqueline's condition, 2nd day was about his despair and 3rd day was the end of his relationship with Jacqueline.

Jericho wonders, Jacqueline didn't fulfill his demand condition as his dream girl but he still accept her. Why Jacqueline can't tolerate for this time and appears like she did nothing wrong at all. Jericho bears all the sin during their relationship, carry all the bad things even he didn't did it. He tried to get up over a break-up by doing this that he like such as shopping, have nice meals, having alcohol drinks at a nice surrounding and watch dramas. The question: what is my mistake still stick in his mind. After a week he break up with Jacqueline, he had a conversation with her again, asking about his mistake. Jacqueline told him that she demand a simple relationship, but wasn't that what Jericho is providing all along and she still can't feel it.

Calling her cute nickname like other couples had trampling her pride, showing disrespect towards her by the method he teasing her by asking what are you smiling at, and never trust her view which is Jericho must admit Jacqueline wasn't sick but the fact she's really sick.

Jacqueline, Jericho learn that treating everyone too nice isn't gonna works. He'll continue his life but with a theory in his mind: "why should I treat you so nice? I'll treat you based on the way you treat me." Jericho is also a normal human being, he had his own anger, and same goes to Jacqueline. Jericho being tolerate when the moment she being mad but why don't she did the same thing as well. Isn't that tolerate should available in a relationship? The absence of Jacqueline's tolerance is one of the facts that made both of them back to single life. Jericho changed a lot for others demand, want him appears to be full with humour, cheerful and etc. This time, like what Jacqueline demand (change for your own purpose) he changed for his own purpose, no more "Mr Nice Guy" to strangers or ordinary people. All along he tried to protect others but what he got is a bleeding heart and a body full with scars and pain, no people never and ever appreciate his efforts. Perhaps it's time for him to protect himself being hurt by others. That's the only thing he learn from coupling with Jacqueline. Until now, Jericho still had a question in his heart for Jacqueline: "would you willing to change your personality for me?"

Thank you, Jacqueline.

Thank you...